Seizure And Hospital

she has seizures yes and usually they are not intense just very mild, so mild you may not notice them, she had only had a big one tonic clonic or grand mal, this happened again last night so she is in the hospital then we had to deal with sib self injurious behavior. oh what a day and night

who invented sleepwalking

my stepdaughter slept walk up the stairs but didn't exactly make it back down again she cried all night cause it hurt.but seriously who came up with this. there must have been some recognition of it in the past./ maybe they thought a demon was in the person or  something. like the Indians, what did they think ,  oh strong leaf is walking in sleep again or what seriously, why dos my daughter have to have this, it worries me that one day she might walk onto the main road by our house and get hit. please watch over us and protect us god, please any who read this pray for my daughters autism. thank you .    momms

Back, and Upset?

ok so my step daughter got back. she is upset, yea that's normal for her but also, she doesn't talk any more because of the regression she is in, it  is a very severe regression, and also she has severe autism,(classic autism) so it really makes this worse, well back to what i was saying, when she came back she wouldn't let me touch her at all, usually she lets me a little because she is sensitive so little things can feel like someone is stabbing her with a knife, well the not touching thing is alarming me a bit because unless someone grabbed her hand or leg for a long time i think happened, this probably traumatized her, i checked this isn't because she didn't take her meds, which i know she didn't but because the meds if she does or doesn't take them, this is not normal, it is mostly because of the regression, it is not because anything happened when she was really young because it didn't, this happened over the weekend. so when she was born she was going to be born in august, but then her mother went into labor in march, and she was being born, she had come half way out on march 24 but then they prevented the pregnancy from happening until June, Carmen Lorena Sanchez(middle names and birth last name we don't put first name up for safety)she was still born 2 months early. they told her mother there were going to be problems, when she was 1 and a half they diagnosed autism. her birth mother didn't have enough money to keep her so she put her up for adoption, she was adopted and i have been in her life since.     they say she wont come out of this regression.  we all love you carmen and we are praying for you. peace love joy. momms

Upsetting Change, Auitsm

my daughter is autistic, she is going to see her friends in oakley, she really likes to go but, she gets very upset about schedule changes, and things not being in her routine or not eating certain things, this results in her havinga tantrum, and with being non verbal, it is very hard to find out what she wants, lets pray that she will be alright. love peace and joy, carmen and momms

Love, the girl trapped inside

when i look into her eyes, i see nothing just emptiness, she has the brownest eyes ever, now they are blue from contacts. i talk to her she doesn't respond, music is the only thing that i think gets through to her. i try and hug her she pulls away and shrieks, i don't get to look in those brown eyes now, they just look away, everything has to be to her schedule. i try to go somewhere crowded other kids love she hide in a corner and flaps her hands. her little world, trapped inside. simple things set her into screaming fits, other like sometimes when she is hurt she wont tell us cause she doesn't even notice. i love you Carmen.  she can not even sit still she stims, runs, and makes odd noise in public. i am sure her world must be OK if she stays in her world, or else its scary. i think that when we talk to her she responds, but we cant hear it, i bet when we talk to her she speaks back in her little world though. she wanders off alot, i am in a battle against the autism, and she is in the battle probably trying to get around it, and show us her beautiful self. love peace and joy.momms

some days

 some days i dont really know what to do. she is such trouble i just want to break down and cry but i cant.because she needs me, without me she wouldnt get anywhere, she woudnt survive in a world like this, o God why did you make my poor carmen autistic. i know i use her name online sometimes, but i just put what she wants me to put with her PECS cards. i wish she would say a word, quieter and more reserved you have become. i love you carmen lorena sanchez, please show you love me back, please smile, please do what a normal child does. when i go to the store i  look at all the normal children and wish that you were like them, normal and happy, i wish you were aware of me, i wish you could play with me. i wish for so many things my step daughter i do, just know i love you more than any step mother, more than any mother coud ever love her child.
        

Small THings, Some Good And Others Bad

My step daughter uses PECS, to communicate, but sometimes she will say Ba, for ball (so we think) or bo bo for bubble, but we really cant be sure. she inspires us lol, she is very tough to handle, lol.   she really likes music so we bought her an ipod and loaded it with songs, we clip it behind her and put the ear buds under her headphones. she goes to countless therapies, ABA, music,speech,ot,pt,floortime,massage therapy,play therapy,Holding therapy,medications, hyperbaric-oxygen therapy,dietary intervention,chiropractic,canine companion,assistive technology, and other in school. those are the many therapies we do daily. sounds like alot. yeah. it is. we have the tantrums too, and the broken items around the house. holding therapy works the best, if you ever meet my daughter and she doesnt respond, hold her in a way like a hugs, hold her arms down and speak softly to her.  i will include a pic of her also but she loves certain things, like throwing blocks against the wall, oh great now we have little dents in the walls, and stepping on the dog when im not in the room, well please comment and leave ideas for therapies and stuff ok thank you.