when i look into her eyes, i see nothing just emptiness, she has the brownest eyes ever, now they are blue from contacts. i talk to her she doesn't respond, music is the only thing that i think gets through to her. i try and hug her she pulls away and shrieks, i don't get to look in those brown eyes now, they just look away, everything has to be to her schedule. i try to go somewhere crowded other kids love she hide in a corner and flaps her hands. her little world, trapped inside. simple things set her into screaming fits, other like sometimes when she is hurt she wont tell us cause she doesn't even notice. i love you Carmen. she can not even sit still she stims, runs, and makes odd noise in public. i am sure her world must be OK if she stays in her world, or else its scary. i think that when we talk to her she responds, but we cant hear it, i bet when we talk to her she speaks back in her little world though. she wanders off alot, i am in a battle against the autism, and she is in the battle probably trying to get around it, and show us her beautiful self. love peace and joy.momms
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